_my love for you;

Wheeeeee...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

No more prelims.. jumps up and down..so Happy...exhilarated...in a euphoric mood... yarh u get e point right...it was so fun yesterday watching e new police story so cool, yupz really worth e money, its funny and touching at sme parts but a bit violent and heart wrenching in e beggining. When to Kino yesterday, and.......I GOT MORE STICKERS AND COLOUR PENS !!!!!!!!!!! wanted to buy this book "White As Snow" by Tanith Lee but it cost horrors of horrors abt $30 not enough money... sobz...so many ppl B'dae on oct sighz...going to be broke for sure... Viv Liming and so on... really had fun yesterday crapping about wif everybody...

Going to swim today... hmmzz... long time liao....hahaha...

Kayz..actually wanted to blog yesterday but my stupid brother cut off e internet connection sighz... but nv mind... no school for e rest of the week...lalalalalala...

dreamingalong...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, September 28, 2004 :)

Staying focus

Monday, September 27, 2004

Aaaaarrgghh... I think I'm going to fail physics for goodness sake... I totally can not stay focus...its like e last paper and everybodys discussing on what to do after prelims... can't wait... going to play till I drop for at least until Sunday... then I start worrying about my results.sighz... I hope I can get into a JC. Yeah... watching movie,tml... haha... its been a long time since I went out and play , beside going to e airport ...

Went to the airport today, becoming as Kim says an airport addict...lol... u nd more of it to get e same kind of feeling =)

I can't believe it... our prelim papers for e math p1 questions actually came from Dunman high paper 1 (some) ... hmmppzz... lazy teachers... somemore exactly e same....

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Monday, September 27, 2004 :)

(-__-)"

Saturday, September 25, 2004

sighz... frankly today has been really boring ... so I shall comment e conditions of my papers that i took

A math P1&2-a catastrophy
E math P2-Soso
Bio- absymal
chem- better pray hard
Social studies- lets juz hope for a miracle
Lit- total crapz
Eng- hopeless

Predictions

Emath P1- dying
Physics- no hope of survival

Well my conclusion, i might as well juz bury myself somewhere n rot it won't make a difference ... sighz... I really hope that there is a silver lining behind every dark cloud ... my silver lining better be worth these dark kind of results...
oopss.. talking crapz... juz ignore me n this blog.. its not worth your time... lol

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Saturday, September 25, 2004 :)

e week is finally ending soon..

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Love this song ...
lyrics very meaningful...

Disguise( Lene marlin )

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
when your pain will disappear
when you know that it's not true
what they say about you
you could not care less about the things
surrounding you
ignoring all the voices from the walls

Sounds sad huh.. its something i think all of us can relate to somtimes...especially during periods like these... don't tink i will do well for chem...sighz...A math tml...den e weeks finally over ... have a gd nite sleep ...
(-__-)zzzzzzz
dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Thursday, September 23, 2004 :)

Confused emotions..

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Confuse thats what I usually am.... over what I want, what I shld to do, confuse over everything that is possible...bleahx.. I really shld get a grip over myself... whats e point though, These few days have been really trying and I know everybodies tired , emotions run wild wif tears frustration and some relief...well I'm glad half e weeks over and I'm still alive tml chems paper I hope I can do well.. pray...

Sighz, after complaining so much I feel much better... been feeling rather moody these few days, I really shld be grateful with what I have already but welll maybe its e stress that is getting into me... i swear I'm going to give myself a break nxt week with absolutely no studying after e prelims... I don't care...

this is crapz...nv mind... all e best for e rest of e papers... =P

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Wednesday, September 22, 2004 :)

wheee.....airport...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Social Studies is finally over!!!! no more conflicts diplomacy industries and what so ever, so happy makes me feel so relieve...but very tired, muz get more motivation to study. Airport so fun to study, had a lot help from my friends,ever so grateful to them. Its really a nice place to study if u have the will n not get too distracted. A lot of ppl came today(mini gathering)stole Swee San 'hubby' ...lol.. got 'molested' by her ... sighz...regrets =P Like the environment there!! hmmzzz... don't think i did very well for todays paper but must think positive... Kim must believe in youself.... u say u optimistic for me , I shall also be optimistic for you...love u lots...smilez...oh and riding on e baggage trolley in e airport actually quite fun...

No more papers tml.no nd to go to school!!! Yeah...To all my friends thks for comforting me when i was feeling down...I really appreciate it...

Pov: got so many dots in my blog today...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Thursday, September 16, 2004 :)

so depressed

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

what is wrong with me.... i'm so gonna fail my physics practicals. I cried I totally lost control of myself.. what is wrong with me, so cry baby, sighz... But i really appreciate e comforts given by my friends... thks (Kim jas and sweesan) ma ma, teresa n Yi fang it cheered me up a lot ... I'll try harder , for all of you and for myself. anyhow i really feel sad , why am i so stupid...I don't think I'm confident over my studies... really scared ... theres always this constant notion irritating me asking me whether I'm sure abt what I'm doing and the truth is I'm not ... I'm never confident .. oh gosh ... I hate myself in this state.. I want to be the happy old me... but this is really affecting me.. why oh why am i so dumb...I know that it does not help me at all degrading myself but i guess i just can't help it... worst still i had to put on a facade and assure my mum that e paper was ok just to let her not be worried...so pathethic..i hate lying to her... tml lits paper and I'm freaking out...

anywayz kim... don't be too sad too...I'll always be there for you k...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, September 14, 2004 :)

Prelims impending,,,

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Despite the fact that I made a solemm promise to myself that I will stop blogging, unfortunately i have broke my promise today. Well I can only blame it on the fact of me being unable to escape the overpowering hold that the computer have over me. I'm serious every time I pick up a book and try to concentrate, the thoughts of my beloved computer come silently into my brain cajoling me to start plying with it. Me being very susceptible to persuasion and such, submitted to my desire.Well at least i'm trying to improve my english as i go along writing this blog.

Tommorow shall be the day when my prelims will officially commence and also when my future is put on a fragile balance ... whether it will fall or not depends on how well I prepared my subjects. The very thought sent shivers down my spine...

K enough of this speak good english stuff, I hope this is my last blog for 2 weeks, but it really depends on how long i can resist the callingsof my computer, haha...

Love the airport , its a condusive environment for me to study...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Sunday, September 12, 2004 :)

AAAAAHHHH!!!!!!

Friday, September 03, 2004

thats what I seriously feel like doing now... juz scream and let out all my FRUSTRATIONS about my life and everything else...I swear one of these I'll certainly do something that is certainly so not expected of me...arrghhh.....why can't there be juz an easier way for me to let out and vent all my frustrations, sighz, too many restritions... I HATE CUCUMBERS N LADY FINGERS N RICE and i will never eat them n totally abhore e sight e sight of them, wish they nv exist in this universe...

Clueless of whats happening to me??? don't blame you ,I'm going crazy...So strange studied in airport then all e questions ppl dunno how to do, most i can solve, but those i try to do myself, totally cluless on how to solve, destiny is playing a big joke on me...sighz(T.T)

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Friday, September 03, 2004 :)