_my love for you;

Family tree???

Friday, October 29, 2004

Been going online so often when O's is nearing ...I tink I'm insane ...

Today was e last day of school ...sniffles... last day being a official Sec4... argghhhzz... so sad right...ate guo tiao... e auntie so nice give me so many mushroom...lol...but sadly today's her last day working... she retiring this year... shall miss her food...haha

anywayz e rest of e level was suppose to clean classroom.. so swee proceeded to wipe of e 'family tree' frm e desk ... so decided to post it here...written by swee

Mothers/Hubby??
-Jas
-swee
-Kim

Foremother
-Jing fang
Forefather
-Kang Zhuang

Mother's brother
-ka Cheong
Mother's sister
-Teresa -Yi fang

Beloved daughter
-me!!!
Son/pet???
-Anders

Nanny
-Herlina
Maid??
-Sujata (don't kill me)
Cook
-Nurul /Nu Nu
Caretaker
-Desmond
Chaffeur
-Ozy
Family's doctor
-Bing sheng
Family's Entertainer
-Jeeven

For those who have no idea how their names got drag in...its juz for fun...lol....

anywayz..I'm juz crapping here

-Sign Off @ Friday, October 29, 2004 :)

Smiling...

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Bio was pract was ok...though we had to draw prawns... so unexpected we expected some kind of fruit of vegetable..Seafood nah... gosh e prawn stinks... there was a few other incidents such as my missing eraser n e absence of my calculator...oh well...

Decide to go out for lunch with Jas Swee KIm Tris Nurul Anders n Yancheng... sounds like alot... it was down to 5 ppl eating at e end ... lol... bought a bracelet n glow in e dark stickers... was so satisfied with my profit... laughs...had a lot of fun...

but e surprise was yet to come... My mum n dad brought me to Best Denki at east point n bought me an Apple ipod Mini (pink) no other colours left ... but still nice... so happy...screams n Shouts...wanted e Zen touch but too Ex...oh well.. but still its so cool... wow... feeling so lucky...hahaz... early B'dae present...wheee...what an unexpected pleasent surprise...

ok... got to upload music to my new Ipod ... smilez widely...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Thursday, October 28, 2004 :)

Bio-terrorism

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

I've finally realise how hard it is too be late for school... I fully intended to come for lessons late ...however destiny seems to like to play a joke with me... as i slowly strolled out of house at 7.15am... taking my own sweet time... e Bus 9 straight away appeared right infornt of me as I reached e bus stop... after which e Bus 10 immediatly arrive after I got off Bus 9... its fate... making me arrive to school on time... not that it matters since I nd not attend assembly... instead e teachers came in late for lessons...Life is sure full of controversies...

there was not much lessons to speak abt... anywayz Bio practicals is tml...screams n shouts... do i feel prepared ...duh obviously not... so y am i even blogging...cause bio makes me fall asleep ...sighz... terroizzes me .... haunts my dreams... constantly lingering in my mind...getting dramatic...lol

anywayz...currently munching on a mag a cone chocolate ice cream...slurps... delicious... are all of you jealous..it taste so delicious , refreshing...

for those who keeps mentioning abt e A-club
My definition of e so called A-club: cool, cute n wonderful ppl...

heez...n dats all before i hit e books again...and make them beg me for mercy ....

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Wednesday, October 27, 2004 :)

headache...

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Currently I'm suffering frm a horrible headache which seems to develope out of no where ... so painful... how to concentrate to study... haiz... feeling sick yet not is sick...weird right... what can I say I'm one of a kind...

Once again my blurness strikes again as I left my physics text bk in e lab aft practicals n forgot to bring it along... u wld think that after numerous incidents Iwld have learnt my lessons... but no... I still persist... and guess what Swee say I'm matured ...yeah!!! love u lots n lots...

Bio practicals is on thurs... sighz... more cramming to do... i nd some help ppl... hopeless in practicals... todays practical went ok compared to my prelims physics practical( yes Teresa i noe I keep harping on it can't help it larh...)

oh my b'dae is approaching nearer n nearer going to be 16 soon... wheee... so cool, I'll be older...its on 11 november ... Deepavali( festival of lights) lots of candles wll be lit for me n everybdy will be celebrating... I'm so great...lol... crapping here don't mind me..

heez... thats all folks...back to my books... muhahahahaha( laughter of e evil bk) ...

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, October 26, 2004 :)

oh no!!!

Monday, October 25, 2004

I'm really so blur... so much so that I can't believe myself... I juz discovered that Physics Practical is Tml not on wednesday...gosh what is wrong with me...lol... but then again not much can be revised for physics practical... but still...

Anywayz... i can't imagine that O levels is like just a week away... so stressful... not that I appear stress... but looks can be decieving...sighz... I shldn't be even touching my computer... why do I always give in to temptations...

Oh... lots of ppl I know ask me what Jc I want to go... frankly I don't know...I guess I just don't want to think abt it... according to Ka Cheong, I can go to Tampinese Jc... but If I want I can appeal to Meridien through Band... whateva... theres not much choice anywayz... strive for O's now.. hopefully...

yupz, not much happening anywayz... boring...ok ok...thats all..shan't torture You all with my boring entry anymore...feel like sleeping but think shall continue teresa's autograph...more drawing... effective way to destress...lol

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Monday, October 25, 2004 :)

hmmmzzzz...

Friday, October 22, 2004

Juz watched Little Mermaid 2 ... so nice n funny... haha... go ahead say I'm childish I don't care really very funny... reliving my childhood...muahahahaha...

Guess what MrChooi said that I can be a teacher ...whee... he say i can fierce too...lalalalala...so happy... so my friends muz believe him hor... i can be fierce...=p so don't nd to be worried I get bullied...

yupz... today attendence in our class was dismal ... only less then 20 came for lessons ... pathetic... oh well... it was kinda waste of time ... everybody was basically chatting abt...
did a little physics... realize that Mr Eng not that dumb after all..lol...

Celiana still upset over that incident... yikes... I guess there is difference between a joke n being mean... as she claims... she was so sarcastic to Swee n Bing Sheng...( not that they actually care)oh well... juz that its near e end of sec 4 we muz not have any disputes among ourselves rite...wateva...

basiclly thats it... n yes I still have to say Little Mermaid 2 very nice... sighz... wish suddenly I w as 6 years old again...heez...but its nice to be old too...still loving lene marlin songs... her voice so nice... unique...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Friday, October 22, 2004 :)

back to e airport....

Thursday, October 21, 2004

I'm like in a span of 4 days when to e airport for 3 times ... like wow... I'm really attached to e airport now...muahahaha... today had My O's for chem pract... sighz... don't want to talk abt it... den when with Tris Fang and Viv to e airport to study... (Jas n Swee where did u all dissapear too???huh... abandon your daughter(T_T)) don't think I forget...

ate e pasta there... taste so nice... n drank like 2 whole cups of hot Chocolate... becoming or already a chocoholic... lol... its addictive... (advertise for e venders there ...i so nice)

anywayz was doing A-math or struggling to do it... demoralized... then everybody was so lame...so didn't do that much ... well at least better then at home ...den Viv hinted on what my B'dae present is... hahahahaha... its in less then a month time... Yipeee.... going to be 16 soon...well Yi Fang it seems u're e only one who can keep secrets teresa n Viv or no gd at that... lol... don't blame them...

anywayz... to those who can't hear e song... I'm sorry... but too bad... so nice!! Unforgivable Sinner by Lene Marlin... her songs all quite nice.. heez...

airport my third home for now... until O's end... me abode ... my hide out...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Thursday, October 21, 2004 :)

sighz...

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

I seriously nd more drive to study... though I've been studying but its not very intensive yet....procrastinating... I mean i really feel so guilty....Tmls My chem O'level practical... I hope everything goes well... I feel so unprepared , time simply past too fast...

well, was a pretty slack day today in school, lots of ppl skip extra lessons... wasn't really in e mood to pay attention ... so hot e weather... then at e end of e day we saw e 'Masterpiece' of Jas n Swee of e supposed Celiana autograph... it was kinda of funny to all of us we were laughing away ... that is until Celiana saw it... well she was kinda hurt by e content... i guess we unintentionally hurt her feelings though it was meant as a joke... it slipped our mind that she is slightly more sensitive... felt a little guilty then for laughing ... but e content was really humorous ... oh welll, what done can't be undone... hope she feels better...=p

I been feeling frustrated with myself alot this days i dunno why... arrghhh... I must get a grip of myself... e stress cld be getting into me ... though I don't look stress... Kim said how she can't bear to part with us at e end of sec 4 n how she is bad at keeping in contact... me too.. that thought is constantly on my mind... though i try to not to tink abt it as much as I can... gives one this sad feeling...

well, thats it... Gd luck to everybody taking e O'level chem pract tml... and all e best!! back to studying....

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Wednesday, October 20, 2004 :)

lalalala

Monday, October 18, 2004

thks to Yi Fang who was so nice to help me out by adding music for my blog... i so lucky!!!

had a unusually high number of blur incidents today.... wonder y... shall not go into details n embarassed myself... even infected Yi Fang ... so beware my next target might juz be u... muahahahaha ...*evil laughter* ...

when to e airport n discovered that e hot chocolate at e staff canteen is really nice.... yummy...
did some math n started mutiltating e paper with my drawings one of which nearly freak fang out... lol...

I wld also like to wish Jeeven n nurul a happy B'dae... haha... still owe a lot of ppl 'dae presents... so guilty... no time to buy larh... slowly settle my debts...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Monday, October 18, 2004 :)

Time flies

Friday, October 15, 2004

Time seem to whizz past so fast that somtetimes i wonder whether its juz an illusion n if everything that happens are merely but dreams... today is our last OFFICAL day in school after 4 years ... its almost unbelievable ... 4 years seem to pass all too quickly... my secondary days are mumbered...sighz...

my journey in temasek for these 4 years had been extremely eventful n filled with activities n experience that i'll never forget... It has indeed changed me quite abit.... teaching me precious life lessons that will help me in e future... (shall not go in detail reserve for after Graduation night) I have also met alot of wonderful ppl which are my friends... so lucky lor me...

basicly .... there was a lot of photo taking today... n by coincidence we got our class t-shirt finally... suitable dress code for today...

a tinge of sadness can't help but overcome me.... this is e end of e crappy n boring lessons ... it seems weird but i know for sure that when I grow old i'll certainly look back n miss e good old days with this lessons n yes even the teachers...well as mr chooi says 'all good things must come to an end'.... well i certainly hope that more "good things' shall come our way...

digressing here: magnolia chocolate milk taste simply great together with honey gold cornflakes... absolutely delicious...a more healthy choice of comfort food... yummy...out of this world... shld try it...e best part its not costly... only $1.80 ... what more can u ask for!!=p

dreamingaway..
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Friday, October 15, 2004 :)

lost...

Monday, October 11, 2004

lost... i juz can't help it... i have no idea what to do... lost in multitudes of emotions... voices seems to wash past me... i really feel so helpless against this feeling...nothing seems to matter anymore...

I don't want to be like this... but putting up a strong front is not easy... taking things as it is is really difficult... its not in my character...it requires alot of effort and I do not have a choice... I really have no idea what to do... feeling so inferior n ...

I'm so pathetic.... why can't I juz accept things at is... why can't I be more like everybody...why... i don't want to make my friends worry over me... i...

I wish this a nitemare that will end soon but its cold hard reality... forget it... juz ignore me...

dreamingalong...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Monday, October 11, 2004 :)

getting mentally prepared...

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

oh no... e papers and results are going to be returned soon... sighz...I shall be truamatized ... like Kingshaw!!!!!! yupz, despite e fact that I agree that getting gd results are not everything and that theres always next time , but This is juz as impt to me... e hope that I get gd results seems bleak at e moment... I shld be more optimistic I noe... but I'm more like deluding myself... to not be affected by bad results is more like asking a miracle frm me... its only thks to e care n concern of everybody that I'm ok now... I'm so lucky actually...

Alot of ppl skipped school today like 7 in our class... imagine that...then we were asked to fill up e cca form wif our activities n events that we performed... frm sec 1 to 4... recalled how much time I spent in band and all e memories I have ... miss e music and fun we have... Syf , premiers n all...all e struggling n conflicts in Sec 2 to e sense of acheivement in Sec3 before finally stopping band in Sec4 now...it all seems to pass to fast...

hopefully...there is a better tml for me... heez...don't worry...I'll TRY my best not to let e results get me down... but no promises...

dreamingalong...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Wednesday, October 06, 2004 :)

blank

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

blogging juz for e sake of blogging.. not thinking of anything...keeping my mind blank... Don't bother reading this blog entry its not worth your time... bleahx... no mood to write anything, whatever , won't make much diff anywayz...dats all for now....

(shortest entry I written... but who cares...)
thks kim ,tris ,fang n many others for being there with me today....dats all

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, October 05, 2004 :)

pondering ....thinking....

Monday, October 04, 2004

after watching yesterday charity show for e cancer patients I really felt so fortunate and a little dissapointed with myself...Theres so many unfortunate ppl out here in Singapore who have life so miserable n filled with pain, n here I am so healthy n I'm still complaining how miserable my life is... gosh I sld be thkful with what I have n grateful to be so healthy with a nice family and all, why am I so greedy always wanting better (human nature i guess never to be satisfied with what we have)... Yupz, wish that things will turn out better for the many unfortunate ppl out there...heez...

anywayz, I'm quite unsure abt my results now... I mean the feedback frm e teachers was not gd, worrying like crazy... well let fate decide my future, I think I should start intensive studies frm tml... I hope I have the will ... muz motivate myself...(*.*)"

On a lighter note, had fun today eating lunch at e coffeeshop wif WenJian BingSheng Her Tris Ozy n Kz... we were crapping about n yupz teasing each other... it really took my mind off e prelims alot... cheered me up..lol...

Basiclly thats all for now... rather boring blog... oh well... lalalalala....

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Monday, October 04, 2004 :)

happy den.... sad......

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Well my day started out fun going to Kim's place to play n eating her mother'a lovely spaghtetti yumz... we had fun playing e Sims n e piano everything was nice n fun...I was very happy before disaster strikes....
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Had a qurrel with my mum, so sad... don't know what to do...why can't she juz understand, why ... am i really wrong ... I don't know ...arrgggzzz....really sad, den e pressure of e prelims results set in n suddenly I started getting depressed...I don't want to but I juz can't help it, everything starts runninng through my mind and I couldn't help but feel so helpless not knowing what to do next...Prelims may be over I shld be happy , y am i feeling so sad??? sometimes I juz don't understand myself.... My life... juz what do I want out of it what do I want to do with it , how do I want to live my live... aimless I really seem to be juz dreaming along with my life taking it to be a figment of my imagination but when reality actually sets in ..... maybe I lack e courage to face it... sighz... what shld I do????? I have no idea...Life Still goes on no matter how sad we are time does not wait for anybody thats a fact that I have to accept ...

an unexpected ending for whay could have been a wonderful day, it just shows that life is always unexpected and we can never tell what e future holds for us...

dreamingalong...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Saturday, October 02, 2004 :)

wondering...

Friday, October 01, 2004

todays children' day and i suddenly recalled my last children day a few years back...time seem to juz slipped past without much notice... sighz... we had alot of fun and I could still remember that our ex form teacher Miss Jelita was very kind and generous to us... I really treasured my last years in primary school......haha...

had this sudden feeling how things and people change so much as time flies... I mean I could nv imagine myself being who I am years ago. This leads me to wonder as e days pass n our graduating day approaches, will we ever be e same like in e past how much of us will change and how much will remaine same. It is inevitable that evrybody will soon part and I dread e day when it becomes reality, I really feel afraid of e mysterious unknown namely e future that awaits everyone of us... Theres this sudden sense of insecurity I never felt before...wondering...n also a tinge of sadness n apprehension....

On another note, I had a lot of fun these past few days stayed over at my friends condo, it was a memorable experience with lots of swimming n activites ... really enjoyed myself.

with all said n done, i shall end with a quote I find meaningful:
"We call that person who has lost his father, an orphan; and a widower that man who has lost his wife. But that man who has known the immense unhappiness of losing a friend, by what name do we call him? Here every language is silent and holds its peace in impotence."

dreamingalong...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Friday, October 01, 2004 :)