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Friday, January 28, 2005

e title says it all.. dis entry is all abt e random things dat happen during e week... heez... ok ... actually is too lazy to tink of a title so juz think of any random word ( pun intended ) =P

First i wld like to say dat i'm beginning to tink dat my CG rocks... after one civics lesson...we bonded ... it was unintended but... now we r more united in a way...lolz... plus yest no bio lessons... so its free period in e class so we played games in e class together... fun larh...i got forfeit... bleahz... had to tell e chemistry teacher dat shes pretty...o_O'' haha... nv mind... we doing e Angels n Mortals thing within e class now until Valentine's day...hope i get a nice angel...lolz....hmmz... but i still miss 4e3 larh...

anywayz...Tp Jc canteen food really is not very nice... to say e least...some r passable.. but e others cannot make it... been eating alot of waffles dis few days... yummy... fattening too.. but watever... e Pe lessons in Tp jc r enough to shed all those extra weight... all we do during pe dis past week is Run run Run n run.... my muscles r aching.... seriously.... nv ran so much in my life for a week larh... train stamina for e road run...

oh yeahz... n i sadly have yet to get rid of my 'A' syndrome... n i tink its getting worst... oh no... i shld c a doc...lolz.... dis mth... i left hp at Gelare', wallet in LJS, pencil box in Lecture theatre... n juz today my wallet n pencil box in class... thk god still found them... like woah... i've become more blur n careless... n i've miss my bus becoz not paying attention n yes also forgot to stop at correct bus stop... bleahz...

Guitar club is pure fun ....i like it so much .... though still can't play e guitar well n all... but can play simple tunes liao... accomplishment... so proud of myself.... e seniors all also very nice....juz miss playing e clarinet n of coz my dearest section... oh n dis kelly clarkson song nice rite?? haha....

ok... for e unexpected part...juz realized dat pri schl classmate father juz pass away ... e funeral is currently held opp my block... gasps... when wif a few other pri schl class mates to pay respect... its like class reunion there?? during a funeral??? life is so unexpected... e father died becoz of car accident... so i shall treasure e ppl ard me more...

3 test nxt week... Bio chem math...boohoohoo... n still haf yet to do my hw... which is alot..y i slack so much during e week... now gonna suffer during e week end... sighz... retribution... procrastination .... (-.-)

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another week has gone...

Saturday, January 22, 2005

ok... a week has past juz like dat... so fast huh... well i'm finally settling down with my class... yeah they r nice ppl after all... heez... gonna get my guitar moz probably on mon...like wheee.. can't wait...i wanna practice some more...ooops forgot abt my piles of hw beside me collecting dust.... haiz...

hmmzzz...watch elecktra on fri wif Bs Yf tris kim her Des Kc Yan fu Wj n Kz ... e movie was quite ok but e ending wasn't to my liking...not worth e extra $2 we paid...den when arcade... me n her became spectators... but quite fun larh...ate dinner at foodcourt.... can't believe i spent more then 6hrs in Tampinese...gosh... had fun though =P=p=P=p=P

hmmmzzz.. den e nxt day is my Og bbq...well.. is was boring at first... drag a few of my frendz to e playground to play e swing n spider web...fun...hmmz...returned n started spreading honey n butter on e pieces of chicken ... fun ok... like painting like dat...okok... its also e bbq den i got very very very wet..like extremly wet.... got dunked into e sea twice... n a whole ice box full of water splashed on me... den 1 of my sandals broke..... so unglam...yeahz... we also threw ice cubes at each other.... like put e ice into your shirts n stuff..haha... e OGLs more pitiful larh... all we OgMs ganged up against them ....den we all decided to dunk those ppl dat r dry to e sea... so carry them n threw them down e sea... yeahz... so everybody returned home wet... heez..missed e last train so i shared taxi wif 3 other ppl... returned home at abt 11.45 like dat... so sleepy....oh n i juz realised dat one of e capella ppl is my pri schl friend... lalalala

yeahz... dats all... better do my hw...its calling out to me.... so so so so bored now......i wanna sleep...haha

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Before The Dawn....

Monday, January 17, 2005

points above ... cool title ritez.... dats e name of e song playing now...e more i hear e song e more i like it... its indeed melancholy... but den i'm not feeling much better either....

sighz... yesterday was indeed fun....i enjoyed myself very much....it was very memorable for me... took neoprints n all... but nearly got broke...bleahz...oh well..

formal lessons started today... i guess it was ok... though e teachers are much to be desired... haiz... shld be joining guitar... my mother miraculously agrees to buy me one... but partly because my sis is also interested... so yeahz...

hmmzz... i'm sad... but nv mind... wonder whether i made e rite decisions...will i live to regret???

the lyrics of e song...

" Before The Dawn"
Meet me after dark again and I'll hold you
I am nothing more than to see you there
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

If only night can hold you where i can see you, my love
Then let me never ever wake again
And maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

[Chorus]
Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

somehow i know that we cant wake again from this dream
it's not real, but it's ours

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

Maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away
We'll be lost before the dawn

[Chanting]

[Music Fades Out]

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Dilemma >_<

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Ok... i managed to drag e decision on wat Cca to make to Monday... but haiz... which to choose Band or Guitar... i ask for many ppl opinions... but in e end i still haf to make e choice... bleahz... y can't one of e cca seem more horrible....watever... its a dilemma for me...

went out wif tris n yi fang today to queensway... to buy shoes...haha... meeting fang again tml... lolz.... hope we will remain as close even after a long time... friends forever... yet to visit my old school always got something up...haiz... miss it so much especially e food... also miss e airport staff canteen pasta n hot chocolate... its been a long time... so many things dat i miss but not many things to look forward too.... tutorials start nxt week... will i be able to cope wif my studies ??? i really worry.... i seem to lose all motivation to study.... sighz...

haf been reading alot of story bks lately... i can't help but wonder how nice if i can be e person in e story somehow... juz be someone else but myself for awhile... n live a more exciting life which does not revolve around studying only... one filled wif adventures n such ... but dats of coz not possible... to live a totally different life frm now...[fairy tales are beyond stories, they are written dreamz] yeahz... i totally agree wif this statement....

hmmmzz... tink i'm quite a loner in my Jc...which is so sad... boohoohoo... i also dunno y leh... i juz feel so insecure there... yeahz... i might haf some frendz there but ultimately everybody returns to thier own cliques during breaks n so on... sighz... can't get use to dis feeling....always feel lost n confused in e Jc... n more often den not clinge on those ppl whom i find more familiar...

oh i simply love dis template...i tink it suits me alot ...e song nice ok... i like it alot...it simply stirrs my emotions... it seems so mysterious ...mystic..soulful...
n somehow wif a tinge of sadness.... basically i lurve dis song... n guess wat??? i don't even noe hu sings it or wats e title of e song... if anybody noes can tag me to tell me... ??? thk u....

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sighz...

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

ritez... this few days haf been ok for me...besides e fact which i get to meet all my wondeful frendz theres nothing much i can really be happy abt... bleahz...

bleahz... yesterday was fun wif Kim Su Tris Viv n Yf ... i miss them so so much... its so so nice to haf frendz dat understand me... n i can feel comfortable around them... serious... finally realise how at ease i am when i'm with them... oh yeahz... once again i was blur n was forgetful enough to leave my Hp at Gelare (yummy ice cream) i only realise it like 15 mins later... thk gdness its still there,,, I'm so freaking lucky... wat we did... talk n talk laugh walk ard... it seems ages since i met them... Kim says I look more mature... wheee =p=P=p

hmmz... ok... wish i can find frendz like them in Jc... ppl i can be cofortable with... dat i can simply not be onguard or put on a disguise .... I'm pretty sick n tired of trying to be friendly... maybe i shld juz be antisocial..but i hate being alone during lectures... but being wif a whole grp of ppl dat i can't connect too isn't any much better...y izzit so hard fo me to fit in... everybody else seems to be adapting perfectly fine... lucky still haf Jing Fang they all but all of them take diff Course wif me =( haiz... maybe its juz me... dunno larh...

lectures seem to be an endless bore... nothing seems to enter my brain... how am i gonna to survive dis 2 Years!!!!!!!!! i seriously haf no idea... oh n e band conducter of Tp Jc is so weird... i tink he has magic ears or sumthing... he doesn't use tuner to tune us... juz tune by ear... den keep scolding us not tuned properly... like wat ever happen to e invention called e tuner... pls lor... haiz... den he teaches as how to breathe n everything ..called as Sec 1s... berating us ... as if wif noe nothing... n is so technical abt e stuff he teaches...watever happen to e passion in making music... all e emotions...he droned on abt MF muz increase air velocity by how many % n so on... forget it larh.. juz might not be joining band after all... seeing guitar club on fri... dilemma ... i juz miss playing e clarinet...

yeahz... dats abt it on my pretty misrable life.. or it cld be becoz i'm kinda not in a very gd mood now.... i juz feel so unwanted n alone... sighz... dis will pass hopefully... for once perhaps... i juz might be having a moodswing.... gasps... I'm really growing up... here i'm complianing abt my pathetic life n e victims frm e tsunami incidents r suffering... i'm such a ungrateful brat...

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haiz...

Monday, January 10, 2005

hmmmzz.. i noe more ppl frm my Jc ... but none of them is close enough to be considered gd frendz... sighz... nv mind... let nature take it course...haha

hmmz... lectures r pretty boring... my civics class is ok... my civics teacher is a diff matter all together ... y r most of the math teachers in Tp jc having problems in their english language... gosh... n he seems so unsure of himself when he speaks to e class... n tells us unimpt stuff like if u r sick go see a doctor??? bleahz..

oh Yeah... Capella gonna haf a bbq ... woohoo.... its on Sat... shld i be excited?? I dunno...wat if i feel extra over there... bleahz... hu cares.....n my grp making something for e Ogs...lalalalala... quite fun larh...

meeting kim Yi fang n Viv tml... yipee... can't wait... miss them oh so much... yeahz... oh yeah met Yf viv n Tris on Sat ... it was quite fun... juz walk ard talk alot... it simply felt like old times... hope we will stay as close as ever even after a long long time.... lolz... oh yeahz,... miss Bing Sheng too... haha...special mention... (Bing sheng u better feel honoured ok) muahahahah... =p=P=p=P

hopefully I wld be able to adjust myself much better to Jc life... N sadly I still can't find my way round e School... juz got lost again today... how pathetic can i be... n to all my frendz ... take care... on a bright note... at least i'm learning to be more self reliant...

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oh Yeahz... CAPELLA rocks....

Friday, January 07, 2005

haha...though i think none of my grp members noes of e existance of my blog ... i wld like to say that they Rawks...lolz!!! we Got e best FAMILY award... yeahz =)

hmmzz... e overview for e pass few days... MATH CHEM lectures r so dead freaking boring... bio lecture was kinda of interesting wif a 'tiny' flaw...we r given homework to do on e introductory lecture... shouts n screams... bleahz... how cruel can they get...

as for e CCA ... i tink i went overboard signed up for 4 CCAs can... BAND...CHOIR??? Guitar club (so cool) ...n Gavel club (slack cca... sort of like ELDDS)... obviously i'm not taking all e ccas larh... will go ard n pick n choose heez... lalalala =P=p=P

Now for My 'Family' ... all of e families had to put up a performance n I was in it...lolz... e show was kinda lame... I was acting like e policewomen chasing dogs n thrashing e begger until he goes away... (ps: imagine me trying to hit n bully somebody) yeahz... but i got staged fright ...bleahz... after years of performance onstage wif e band i still haf stage fright...gosh... oh well.. oh yeahz it was fun desinging e signs as well.. ermmz.. wif my now dead coloured markers,,,o_O

Den we watched e rest of e performance ... so lame can.,. lots of 'Gayz'??? oh well.. den when e rock band play everybody linked into a train n toped all over e place... den one of e members brought in a dog(SPARKY)... near me... it keeps on running to our home leader Bushan(whom we smashed a cake on!!) so funny can... theres dis ex jcian Kevyn keep trying to get e dog attention to our amusement... so didn't really pay much attention to e show...lolz... basically its all fun..wif more music jumping around screaming... enjoyed it throughly.. yeahz..we were announced e BEST FAMILY award...whee... Go Capella go go CApella .... Win CApella WIN win Capella...

Ok sleepy now... I hate my time table... its horrible n argghhzz... nv mind... Gd nitez ppl... so sleepy now.. oh n Jing Fang is very gd in forcing me to eat everything up... byez...

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Orientation days...

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Basically its has been quite alright larh dis past few days... i noe lots more ppl... but i miss e closeness my class once had... sighz... but hopefully my future class can be juz as close...lolz...

so yeahz... basically we cheered alot alot... played some games... hear talks n so on ... nothing much really to say... i dunno y ... so many things is happening ard me n i feel like its like nothing much n i don't wish to catch up wif e present instead i choose to wallow in e past...which is not gd... i guess i'll have to help myself pull through this... nobody can help but myself...this is so unlike me ...sighz...

I noe i'll be back to my old self soon... but i wish i can act more like myself among e ppl in my grp..now i seem to be more guarded wif my actions n everything... more self consious i guess... haiz... n low self esteem i guess..bleahz...watever..

but still Jc life is not as bad as i thought... i did haf fun during Orientation its juz those few moments...oh well...lastly i like to add dat CAPELLA rocks...
Muahahahahahahahaha....

oh we had water games today... our grp won all e games... manz... we rulez...lol...haha...ho wever we smelled of a mixture of various sauces ..juices.. soap.. detergent.. mud n so on... gosh... but it was relatively quite fun larh...=P=p=P=p

Notez: I miss e schls Aircon hall
I miss e schls canteen food ( skipped lunch all e week so far )
I miss e schls environment
I miss e schls classroom
I basically miss everything of e schl...
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new year...new school...

Monday, January 03, 2005

Regret not updating for so long... so much has happen during this period of time... Clarinet outing... Class Chalet...new year...n e first day of school...=p=P=p

E first day of school is pretty scary at first... i nv felt so out of place n left out before... theres like so many ppl with many strange faces dat i can't link to...bleahz... picture dis a little fish in e middle of e ocean filled wif all kinds of different fishes... yeahz... i wld be dat itsy bitsy tiny little fish ..juz something insignificant...haiz... dat feeling sux... ok as time pass i had enough of e loneliness ...n desperately started talking to anyone n evryone i see in my grp... some of which till now i haf yet to noe their names...

Then theres dat insecurity... i feel so afraid that friends in different jcs wif me wld gradually forget me as e days past... n i'm afraid dat we'll drift apart...sighz...its only e first day n i'm tinking so much... =(

I miss evrybody so much... i realised how dependent i was on all my friends now...shall juz list some: Tris hu has always been there to guide me along watever i do n make sure i won't get lost n always being there for me...Yi Fang hu has always listen to wat ever i say n help me to ... jas: hu always makes me smile whenever i feel unhappy...Kim hu constantly shows concern over me n care for me... n many more Like Swee, Su, Bing sheng... Jeev n everyone else i noe... sighz... e sudden lack of presence of them nds some getting use too... haiz..

Enough said... shall not tink too much... life still goes on... my new year resolutions i guess is to be more independent n mature....more abt e orientation nxt time i guess.. i really hope i can adapt to Jc live... =(

Ps:ok maybe e first day of school is not as bad as i mentioned but its 85% true...15% is added melancholy due to e current sad sad song i'm listening to...

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