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new year...new school...

Monday, January 03, 2005

Regret not updating for so long... so much has happen during this period of time... Clarinet outing... Class Chalet...new year...n e first day of school...=p=P=p

E first day of school is pretty scary at first... i nv felt so out of place n left out before... theres like so many ppl with many strange faces dat i can't link to...bleahz... picture dis a little fish in e middle of e ocean filled wif all kinds of different fishes... yeahz... i wld be dat itsy bitsy tiny little fish ..juz something insignificant...haiz... dat feeling sux... ok as time pass i had enough of e loneliness ...n desperately started talking to anyone n evryone i see in my grp... some of which till now i haf yet to noe their names...

Then theres dat insecurity... i feel so afraid that friends in different jcs wif me wld gradually forget me as e days past... n i'm afraid dat we'll drift apart...sighz...its only e first day n i'm tinking so much... =(

I miss evrybody so much... i realised how dependent i was on all my friends now...shall juz list some: Tris hu has always been there to guide me along watever i do n make sure i won't get lost n always being there for me...Yi Fang hu has always listen to wat ever i say n help me to ... jas: hu always makes me smile whenever i feel unhappy...Kim hu constantly shows concern over me n care for me... n many more Like Swee, Su, Bing sheng... Jeev n everyone else i noe... sighz... e sudden lack of presence of them nds some getting use too... haiz..

Enough said... shall not tink too much... life still goes on... my new year resolutions i guess is to be more independent n mature....more abt e orientation nxt time i guess.. i really hope i can adapt to Jc live... =(

Ps:ok maybe e first day of school is not as bad as i mentioned but its 85% true...15% is added melancholy due to e current sad sad song i'm listening to...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

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