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nervous, scared, going crazy...

Sunday, February 27, 2005

I'm so scared.. getting O'level results tml... ahhhh... how to slp today... bleahz... very nervous... how how how... i nd to get my mind of it... bleahz... don't tink don't tink don't tink... wat if i do badly...wat if .... sighz

ok.. anywayz.. when to cut my hair today... omg i look weird... tris say like little gal... oh no... cutting hair is an attempt to get my mind of tml ... yeahz.. Yi fang also cut her hair... so nice.... yupz...

Went to e airport yest wif Yf n tirs to study... still loving e pasta n hot chocolate there!!! yummy... miss studying at e airport .. filled wif so many memories... nostalgic feeling... haiz...

hmmzz... still scared over tml... tink i gonna skip schl after taking attendence... yes i will skip schl tml... well shld be larh... math test tml , hu can do test when o'level results is coming out... huever can do dat is a freak...lolz.. ok larh, shan' be so bad.. crazy teacher... haiz...

dats all larh..too nervous liao.. tink i'm juz writing incoherent stuff here... ahhh... wish i can get it over n done wif... sighz sighz ... i'm going crazy... e more i try not to tink of it , e worst it gets...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Sunday, February 27, 2005 :)

frustrated!!!

Friday, February 25, 2005

feeling so frustrated... e hot weather n impending return of O'levels result is making me go crazy n more emotionally unstable... ritez...but seriously dis few days haf been quite trying... haiz... i wish i cld juz let everything out...

I'm really scared over my results but den again hu isn't ..sighz... i'm lost literally in Jc... somehow, i feel so alone in e Jc... like no one really understands me, nv mind... maybe its juz me being paranoid...

On a lighter note, went to watch Hide and Seek on Wed wif kim su Wenjian Kz Anders Jian wen Wei Qiang n Ju Ren... baisically dats e only highlight of my week so far...yepz.. e movie was quite freaky... ok i was trembling most of e time... bleahz... den when to Toys'rus to get my sis b'dae present... lolz... had fun larh.. very theorapathic to me..at least i wasn't dat frustrated aft dat.. =p

hmmz... too lazy to blog this days...so much hw to complete ... i'm procrastinating... better pull up my socks soon or i'll regret it.... was late for schl for e first time since pri schl on wed... due to a 20 mins jam.... i wish Monday wld nv come....

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Friday, February 25, 2005 :)

Chingay...

Saturday, February 19, 2005

I'm so tired... but happy ... yupz.. when to Chingay today..so Crowded !!! it seemed like half of Singapore is there....Met wif tris n Yf... tried to find a ideal spot to look at e chingay but failed.. nv mind.. den we when to Heeren.. n met up wif Kz n Ozy... decided to take neoprints... Fun fun.. we took twice.. Kz distorted 1 of my pict!!! nv mind... lolz... i finally realize e grudge he has against me... muahahahaha =P=p=P by e time i reachedhome it was already midnight..>_<>

den last thurs when to play pool !! quite fun...met someone unexpected there... lolz.. den when to buy my mortals present... bought dis totally cute bear.. so nice nearly bought one for myself too.. lolz

yupz...n thks to Adeline.. I get to read 'Trickster's Queen' which is a cool bk.. i've wanted to buy it since 1 year ago... yeahz so nice.. its e sequel to 'Trickster's choice' which i haf... by Tamora pierce... A captivating bk indeed... love it so much !! higly recommended by me..lolz... yes its a fantasy bk... n its not childish...

okok..yest took e same bus as my Chem teacher..!!! n she drop off same stop as me... so unlucky... bleahz... nv mind...she ALWAYS pick on me one... haiz,,, oh well...

sleepy... shall go off to dream land now... yawnz...byez... n sweet dreamz...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Saturday, February 19, 2005 :)

Books!!!

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Yeahz.. juz realised dat it has been a really long time since i read a book... sighz.. to caught up wif adapting to my new schl i guess.. but i really miss e feeling of being lost in another world where u get to experience alot of things not possible in our lifes... yeahz.. filled wif magic n mysteries .. so cool... n e satisfaction u get after completing reading a book... haiz... but its so hard to find gd bks dis days... e type i like larh...my conclusion is I MISS READING BOOKS...

lazy to write more... dis song very nice...

Simple plan (WELCOME TO MY LIFE)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's likeTo be like me

To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like

To be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurtTo feel lost To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

anybody got e song can send to me??? thks ...haha.. heard it on e radio... yepz...

shall end here....yawnz... sleepy...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, February 15, 2005 :)

Happy Valentine's day!!!

Monday, February 14, 2005

Ok... I wld like to wish everybody out there a happy Valentine's day... haha.. yepz yepz... but dis week also Friendship week... hmmz... so yeahz... shall treasure my frendz ard me... lolz...

hmmz... feeling kinda guilty ... almost all My Cg grp ppl skipped lecture... haha.. den we juz sit ard n do nothing in particular... exchnged gifts n so on... heez... I'm so gonna get Diabetes... so much sweets n chocs... my angel so sweet ... muahahahaha... gave me lots of chocs.. happy happy... theres a lot of gd bakers in making in our class... Zhu wei made obscene looking cookies..haha.. den Amelia baked yummy cookies..*delicious*... rebecca also baked biscuits... gosh... so sweet ritez... so touched...den Gc (asst class rep) gave all of us a small cup filled wif sweets n chocs... awww...yepz.. so nice ritez... n stil got yvonne, bertina n Janice n so on.... heez =) but 4e3 also very nice larh..

yeahz... den decided to skip guitar today to watch 'Constantine' (again) wif a few of my Cg ppl... yeahz another reason to feel guilty... haiz.... den brought e bulky guitar all e way for nothing...but den zhi Yuan so nice help me carry all e way.. so yarh larh.. lucky me lorh... heez... i managed to bully someone... whee... evil me... muahahahahahaha..... yepz... watching e movie again is actually quite fun i guess... but i was explaining e movie half e time to e rest... lolz... after movie take Neoprints again,... haha... got so many neoprints now... waste money but so fun..

hmmz... might be going to play pool again on thurs... yes again wif my Cg ppl... unconfirmed... wat can i say they r ppl crazy over pool..i'm getting addicted to e game ... gosh.. haiyo.. i'm turning bad...lolz.. maturing ritez...haha

yawnz... shall end soon.. overall today quite fun larh... 'Constantine' rawks... yepz... oh n Tris I mentioned your ring on e prev entry (febuary 10) e last paragraph... hmmppzzz... see i'm very fair ok... !!! haha.. ok shall special mention : thks tris n Yf again for e ring n friends 'keychain' .. love u guys....

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Monday, February 14, 2005 :)

so so so tired n sleepy...

Sunday, February 13, 2005

very very sleepy... like really...slept at 2am on fri n 3am yest...den wake up early in e morning...yawnz... all because of V'day!! long story....

finally found some time to blog now... fri our schl let off early !!yayness ...haha.. den went out wif some of my Cg ppl to play pool..o_O... still very bad at it... haha... fun larh..we wanted to watch movie but timing all not suitable so we settled on eating pastamania...lolz... after dat we take neo prints... fun.. but very squeezy.. imagine 8 ppl squeezing into one machine facing a tiny camera...lolz ..i den proceeded to Spotlight to go buy art materials to make V'day gifts for everybody...(Cg ppl n temasek frendz...) muz be fair marh... lolz... spent up to $30++ there... can't help it..spotlight things all so nice one.... i love to make all kind of funny funny stuff... haha

So I went home bath ate... and finally started doing e V'day prezzys for Tris, YF, kim they all... start at abt 7 n finished at abt 2am... woke up early e nxt day to do e wrapping n some touching up..bleahz.. so tirin..den rushed over to meet Her Wen jian KC su they all at simei mrt station b4 meeting Tris.. went to Ju ren's house for new year visit.,. so happy... alot of 4e3 ppl there... like class gathering like dat... shows how much i miss them.. sniffz.. tried to learn hom to play Bridge unsucessfully... its to complicated for simple minded me... haha..

Went off abt 12++ wif Kim N Su .. had to meet my Cg ppl to our Bio tutor house.. i tot i was late but there were even later ppl.. so waited for quite some time..Miss chan house so nice...haha.. i helped deep fry a whole packet of Ice cream.. so fun... n it tasted yummy.. deep fried ice cream,.. delicious...den her husband student streamed in after some time... they looked so old.. so matured.. but guess wat.. they all same age as me... bleahz.. so sad... i wanna look older... heez.. as e house got crowded.. we decided to leave...

n.........proceeded to go back to play Pool again...lolz...i guess pool is a popular game in my Civics grp...this time i got improve a little bit.. muahahaha.. at least i can hit e white ball better.. lalalala..when we finished it was late already larh abt 6++ so went back home... n i got down to making e V'day presents again dis time for my Cg ppl..n other frendz in TpJc... started at 9.30 n ended at 3am... continued today frm afternoon til abt 9pm...wif alot of short breaks in btw... so tiring... nearly gave up.. but felt bad if i give some den nv give others.. muz be fair..

yupz.. dats y I'm super tired lack of sleep n too much of going out n so on.... haiz.. n still have a stupid Gp essay to research on.. oh manz... oh oh.. Thks Yi Fang love the V'day prezzy u give me... so nice...lolz... haha...shall hang it on my pencil box... happy...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Sunday, February 13, 2005 :)

Chinese New Year Visiting....

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Under e request of Yi Fang i changed my blog song... under e request of Tris i shall make my font larger for easier reading... n also not make my whole entry red in colour...lolz...happy?? =p=P=p

haha...yest was so boring... visit my uncle n grandmas house... so boring... i even resorted to playing wif toys meant for 3 years old... pathetic... hmmz...nothing to tok much abt... nearly bored to death....

today was so much more fun... woke up early in e morning to meet Yf up..den we went all e way to YISHUN to visit Teresa's house... bai nian marh... so nice lorh her house albeit e fact dat its a little out of e way... den we when to Yifang house... her dog came charging to me... i guess it likes me too much..aww...after dat... her very nice dad drove us to my house...played wif e guitar...we also stayed for lunch ... den rush over to Li ming house ... e brownies so nice... oh no... i'm so gonna be fat... ate so so so so much... yarh...

den me tris Li ming n jing qin went over to istana supposedly to support e TWE but unfortunately for us,... there was a freaking long queue ther.. like all e way frm istana to e bus stop n even further off i tink... idiot larh... they shld juz stay home or something lorh...wasted our time only .. spoiler of e day... so we ended up munching fries in mac... b4 heading back home... oh well

hmmmzz.. tris so sweet.. bought me n Yf rings... so i'm currently engaged to tris... muahahahahahaha.. joking larh.... but so nice rite... yepz dats all... tml is gonna be a super boring day... no where to go.. bleahz... zzzzzzzzz... sianz....haiz shall be guai gal for 1 day larh...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Thursday, February 10, 2005 :)

Chinese new year eve...

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

red is suppose to be lucky ritez ... chinese new year marh.. so dis entry shall be all red..lolz... lame.. haha , its so gonna look real bloody...

wat can i say... i really missed 4/3 alot... returning back to schl brought back alot of treasured memories... all e times everybody spent there... sighz...still had lessons today , dumb lorh.. at least bio was much better... den missed bus 12 to go back , den took bus 81 den take train ( met Ka cheong along e way) den switch to bus 14 before finally arriving at TMS... super late... nv mind... recieve alot of hugs frm everybody...miss those hugs alot... makes me feel so comforted... TJc did their mass dance so nice can... lalalala... den went wif everybody to e band room.. they still having band practice... gasps.. yeahz.. they sound quite ok... seeing them makes me feel like i want to go back for band.. too late.. nv mind guitar is juz as fun... den talk n catch up wif each other... didn't get to see much of e teachers coz came late ... sighz...

hmmz...den we rushed to Tm to get tix for e 12.10 show ... failed we den decided on e 1.50 show lorh front row seats though... ate at pastamania... lolz... e ppl hu watched e movie r Des Bs kim Su Yf n viv... yeahz.. e movie is so nice... some parts r so scary e others very funny... its so anti smoking lorh...figured out y its not nc-16... coz government sees that it has educational value...like e Lucifer was saying "you will live, you will live.." wif his hands in keanu reeves body...was wondering wat e hell does dat mean until his hand came out wif gross black stuff all over , when sudden realization dawned upon me... it was black tar accumulated in his lungs due to excessive smoking which caused him lung cancer...-_-''

had to rush back after e movie for reunion dinner.. sianz.... it was so boring we juz sat ard n eat... e adults did e talking... yawnz... tml is another boring day... bleahz... my mother complaining i go out too much...haiz...

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, February 08, 2005 :)

schl tml again...

Sunday, February 06, 2005

haha...school tml... but my hw is still untouched... shall burn e nidnight oil again... last min work... haiz...

hmmzzz.... when to Singapore poly Open house yest wif Gc Darren Yvonne Amelia Janice n Eugene... its like all e way at Dover... so far can..lolz. Sp was giving away free ice cream... cornetto ... yummy... didn't eat finish though.. coz wanna eat lunch later... haha... everybody seems so dead at first.. too tired??? boring.... stayed for awhile only .. den went to orchard to eat... ate e Omu rice thing... nice ... OMG.. wat a glutton...all of us tried to find Zhi yuan whose working there but can't find larh...

oh well... den went to play pool at cinieleisure... e last time i played pool or attempted to learnt to play pool was last year... so i sux at it... yeahz... i got e ball flying actually... can u imagine e balls can actually bounce... dat bad.. so i was sent to e cushion to pract...lolz... but i got a few balls in e end... got improve... at least... but still quite bad at it... beginner marh...fun larh... den me Yvonne Gc n darren go take neoprint... haha... darren took his very first neoprint in his whole life... haha... dats also e first time he go cineileisure i tink... den all of us go back... took alot of photos on e way... camera phone...

den Today went out with yf n tris to get new year clothes , n my mortal valentine's present... haha... finally bought it... yeahz... at last... tris did not manage to get her clothes though... heres a coincidence... we met tris frend hu is in Mjc...he went out wif his frend ... hu is frm Tpjc hu happen to be my frend... its a small world... lolz... enjoyed my time wif tris n fang.. long time nv see them.. ok maybe not very long but still quite long... meeting hopefully everybody on tues again ...whee... watching constantine if can get tix...funness... den tink on thurs go instana support TWE... once time see e juniors...

k blog liao... shld thk Bs for dis blog entry,... his e one hu reminded me to blog... haha... but its basically a whole lot of nonsensical nonsense... watever... pondering on how to go abt doing a timeline of civilisation frm 5000BC - 1900 ... result of not paying attention during lectures... oh n I'm so gonna fail my chem n bio test... haiz... boring...

dreamingalong....
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Sunday, February 06, 2005 :)

Road Run...

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

haha... so tired... so shan't go into details... had road run at East Coast today...e weather so hot... so tiring... ( my ipod fell on e road.. bleahz)

went to east coast together with my cg... quite fun larh... n i tink i'm stuck wif a new nickname 'prawn' watver larh... lolz... had lunch together... when e whole thing ended everybody actually wanted to go home but after missing a record of 3 bus 31s we decided to go out n haf dinner together... so tired...

Chem test tml... don't feel like studying... math test was ermmz... nv mind... ok dats all... my thoughts wander away... dunno watelse to say... i wanna eat chocolate cake... haf dis sudden craving for it...lolz..

i lost half my chem notes ... where the hell did they dissapear too...bleahz...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Wednesday, February 02, 2005 :)

If tomorrow never comes....

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

this few days have been slack for me... ironically enough... it seems i'm more busy when i'm in secondary school...o_O.. sianz... watever larh...

Kinda confuse over my emotions now... like for a moment i'm happy the nxt moment i'm sad... gosh i tink i'm going mental... y? y ?y?... izzit a sign that I'm growing up finally??? *ponders* fluctuating emotions... though i don't appear like that larh... wldn't everybody think i'm crazy if i'm suddenly smiling n laughing all e way and e nxt moment i'm moody n depressed... i also don't know why leh... cld be because of my overactive tmaginations... coz nv pay attention in class alot of time to daydream marh... haiz.. i also draw alot on my notebks... typical of me ...heez...

Guitar is ever juz as fun... i love the feeling of learning something new... especially musical instruments... gives you a sense of sastisfaction... what can i say i simply love music... hmmz... e ppl there are so nice... but then to me almost everybody is nice... you will feel much happier if you tink everybody is nice... den no nd to bother hating or disliking anybody... makes sense ritez... Abigail's philosophy...heez...

today went out wif a few of my classmates to bugis den to orchard...felt abit weird maybe becoz first time going there wif diff ppl ... went to far east plaza... den remind me of the time i went there wif jas n swee to the 'house of stars' where they stared at idol picts for quite long...(ps: jas your b'dae prezzy is still wif me leh ... haiyo) yeahz... took neoprints.. muahaha... its e one dat has camera up n down so we were like going up n down anyhow take... lolz... warm up exercise for tml road run... =P=p=P=p

dunno wat to say liao... but don't feel like ending the entry yet coz after dis gonna study for math tests... no choice... don't wanna fail my first test dis year... i miss e feeling of buying stickers n colour pens... i wanna go kino... n i want to read a new bk... ok i want alot of things ... such a greedy girl... oh n guan cheng says i bear grudges... whee... first time leh... cool ritez...( dunno wat grudge larh but nv mind ... don't care) shows dat i'm getting meaner n fiercer... muahahahaha... soon i'll be able to bully ppl... ok... sounds weird... but yeahz.. so far my attempts in bullying ppl are pretty pathetic... nd more practice... beware...

ok... i'm really crapping already... dunno wat to get for my mortal... haiz... don't wanna think now... worry abt dat later...sighz... shall end here larh... time to get to doing math... yucks... don't want to tml to every come... road run n math tests...

dreamingaway...
abi@dreamworld

-Sign Off @ Tuesday, February 01, 2005 :)