ritez... this few days haf been ok for me...besides e fact which i get to meet all my wondeful frendz theres nothing much i can really be happy abt... bleahz...
bleahz... yesterday was fun wif Kim Su Tris Viv n Yf ... i miss them so so much... its so so nice to haf frendz dat understand me... n i can feel comfortable around them... serious... finally realise how at ease i am when i'm with them... oh yeahz... once again i was blur n was forgetful enough to leave my Hp at Gelare (yummy ice cream) i only realise it like 15 mins later... thk gdness its still there,,, I'm so freaking lucky... wat we did... talk n talk laugh walk ard... it seems ages since i met them... Kim says I look more mature... wheee =p=P=p
hmmz... ok... wish i can find frendz like them in Jc... ppl i can be cofortable with... dat i can simply not be onguard or put on a disguise .... I'm pretty sick n tired of trying to be friendly... maybe i shld juz be antisocial..but i hate being alone during lectures... but being wif a whole grp of ppl dat i can't connect too isn't any much better...y izzit so hard fo me to fit in... everybody else seems to be adapting perfectly fine... lucky still haf Jing Fang they all but all of them take diff Course wif me =( haiz... maybe its juz me... dunno larh...
lectures seem to be an endless bore... nothing seems to enter my brain... how am i gonna to survive dis 2 Years!!!!!!!!! i seriously haf no idea... oh n e band conducter of Tp Jc is so weird... i tink he has magic ears or sumthing... he doesn't use tuner to tune us... juz tune by ear... den keep scolding us not tuned properly... like wat ever happen to e invention called e tuner... pls lor... haiz... den he teaches as how to breathe n everything ..called as Sec 1s... berating us ... as if wif noe nothing... n is so technical abt e stuff he teaches...watever happen to e passion in making music... all e emotions...he droned on abt MF muz increase air velocity by how many % n so on... forget it larh.. juz might not be joining band after all... seeing guitar club on fri... dilemma ... i juz miss playing e clarinet...
yeahz... dats abt it on my pretty misrable life.. or it cld be becoz i'm kinda not in a very gd mood now.... i juz feel so unwanted n alone... sighz... dis will pass hopefully... for once perhaps... i juz might be having a moodswing.... gasps... I'm really growing up... here i'm complianing abt my pathetic life n e victims frm e tsunami incidents r suffering... i'm such a ungrateful brat...
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